my name is marta (i know it sounds like an 'old lady' name). i started this journal in august 2006 just to vent but its become more than that. for me, its a support line and a safe place. ive met really amazing people on here and i wouldnt give them up for the world. sometimes you just gotta put yourself first. i am 19. i just finished my first year of college with a 4.0 i cant drive (legally). but i still have my permit i dont have a real job. i stay up late and hate sleeping in. i love biking early in the morning. i did it this morning in fact. i hated french class but i speak it outside of class anyway. i am 5 kinds of cracka. ive gone to the head doctor during the school year for the past 2.5 years. most of my journal is friends only but i do the occasional public post. im sick of talking to people. i really have nothing better to do with my time. maybe i should work on that i am bored. i am smart. i go to college in michigan. im getting an apartment in the fall with a girl i met in the dorm, dust :) i might join the military i act tough but im "not as bad ass as [i] think [i] am." i love to read. i love lifting. i like writing snail mail. i like surprises. i want to adopt kids. a little chinese girl. name her tito i am a mod in SIA. i rock my own socks off! im so confused. i have a tattoo of a puzzle piece on my head and an octopus on my ankle. i have my lip and nose pierced. i took out my nipple rings after having them for a year. i am mostly done meeting people online. if i get too close to you ill remove you from my friends because chances are good that ill write about you and you cant read that.